10.07.2011

Praying for faith and understanding

(this is kind of a brag post, and also an info post)

At the end of August, Aaron was offered a job with a consulting firm in Scottsdale, AZ.  We prayed and felt good about it, and took the job.  2 weeks later we ended up in Mesa.

Things were going well.  We liked our condo, loved the pool, and the babies had adjusted well.

But...(there's always that but)

Aaron didn't realize what collecting competitive intelligence (i.e. being a market analyst) entailed.  They wanted him to make up a story and pretend to be someone that he wasn't on the phone to get information.  The company he was working for was not hired by another company because they were suspected of illegal activity (I'm not naming his company because I don't want to be vindictive).  His boss wanted him to create a fake I.D. online with a fake LinkedIn profile and say that he had worked for companies that he never had before.  Aaron just didn't feel comfortable.

So he told his boss he couldn't/wouldn't do that.  And they let him go.  Yesterday.  On my birthday.

Aaron waited all day to tell me until the end because he didn't want to ruin my birthday.

Gosh its been hard. 

{I told Aaron yesterday that I was so proud of him for standing up for his values/morals/integrity, but at the same time, a part of me wished he hadn't.  But my mom reminded me that I should be so grateful for a husband who values honesty so much that he would risk losing his job.  I will never have to worry about being able to trust him} (this is the bragging portion of the post.  Aaron is awesome)

Its hard to still have faith that you made the right decision when everything seems to be going so wrong, but I'm trying.  I say all the time that God intends for our trials to be hard and that he understands when we find them hard, but now I actually have to believe what I preach.  Today is a hard day.  Hopefully tomorrow I have a bit more faith.  That's what I'm praying for. 

To top off all this wonderfulness, Aaron's grandmother had a stroke on Monday (we found out yesterday) and Cade got into Aaron's allergy medicine today and we had to call poison control.  He seems to be okay, so thank goodness for that tender mercy.

At times like this, I'm grateful for my testimony and for the gospel of Jesus Christ and I'm so thankful that we just had conference, and I can remember this talk.

"God our Father is not a feeling or an idea or a force. He is a holy person who, as the scriptures teach, has a face and hands and a glorious immortal body. He is real, He knows each of us individually, and He loves us, every one. He wants to bless us." 

Our landlady's (Phyllis) 29-year-old daughter had a stroke last week. Phyllis is inactive.  Monday I asked her if she wanted Aaron to give her a blessing and she said yes.  She's coming over tonight. 

I am grateful to my Heavenly Father for giving us this blessing along with the trial.  I think about Phyllis, and about how much our Heavenly Father loves her too, that he would move an entire family to Arizona just so that we can share the gospel with her.  I don't know if we'll convert her, but I intend to plant a seed. 

7 comments:

Sara said...

Crying over here reading it outloud to Spencer. We sure miss you guys. Rachelle, you are so strong. We will be praying for you guys. This is written beauitfully, I always love reading your blog. Love you guys and miss you.

Doug & Jessica Hansen said...

Oh boy I can't imagine how hard, confusing and frustrating it must be to have this happen now! It is good to see you finding the positive in all of this. Without looking for the tender mercies, trials can be so overwhelming. Hang in there, have faith, the Lord definitely has a plan or you. You will be in our prayers.

Whitney said...

What a wonderful family you have, Rachelle! As hard as that was for Aaron and you, I know you guys will be blessed for his decision to adhere to his covenants and convictions. You are so faithful and strong. Your sweet family will be in our prayers. We miss you!

Kendra and Karl said...

Chelle you are so strong. I have always loved hearing your testimony [even if it was so it could be the last testimony given of the year. :)]. I am sorry that you guys have to go through this right now, but I know that somehow this will all work out and you guys will be blessed for doing to right thing and having faith. I am so happy that you have such a great guy by your side. Love you! [by the way, we both have phones, we should use them more often]

Megan said...

You are such a great example, Rachelle! I am so sorry you guys are going through this right now. It can be so hard to feel like you were meant to be somewhere but then other plans fall through. But you are so strong and amazing and have such a powerful testimony it truly is inspirational. We are praying for you and your family that all will work out! We miss you guys SO MUCH!

Delcie said...

Wow! I'm sorry you guys are having a really hard time, right now. But, good job Aaron! Way to go! You guys will definitely be blessed because Aaron lived what he believed. You guys are an awesome family!

Michaela said...

This post makes me like your husband. And I don't even know him. Haha. I'm sorry things are rough right now. I'm sure you guys will be blessed for it though. Hang in there. You'll be in my prayers.